by Rex Rouis
Even in the midst of blessings, people can have recurrent fits of depression. It comes in like a dark, heavy cloud. We pray, fast, or make resolutions, only to find it getting worse. That is because this cloud of depression is not mental; it is spiritual. It is called the spirit of heaviness.
“To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified.” Isaiah 61:3
It is an evil spirit—a personality that studies us, knows our weaknesses, and knows how and when to attack. Recognizing the identity of an enemy is a tremendous first step, but then it must be fought.
It shall come to pass, that whosoever shall call on the name of the LORD shall be delivered. Joel 2:32
Meditate on scriptures like the one above and pray: “God, in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ – according to Your Word – I’m asking you to deliver me from this spirit of heaviness in Jesus Name.”
The pressure will lift, but it is one thing to be delivered; it is another thing to stay delivered. It is now up to us to reprogram our minds – to cultivate a different outlook and way of thinking. Before deliverance, we are not able to do it, but now after deliverance, it is our responsibility to do it.
The problem is our mind. The devil reaches people through their minds. The more we trust in our mind, the more Satan is able to use it against us. It is up to us to make our mind realize that it is our servant, not our master. Our minds are affected by our thoughts, so we must take charge of what we think.
For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh, 4 for the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but [b]divinely powerful for the destruction of fortresses. 5 We are destroying speculations and every lofty thing raised up against the knowledge of God, and we are taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ, II Corinthians 10:3-5
Remember, just as heaviness is a real spirit, the God of the Bible is a real Person, and He is behind each promise. He promised them to you for a reason – to help you. Read them, study them, meditate on them. They will give you hope and they will change you. It will not come in five minutes. It will take hard work, but it will come and it will work, and it is worth every bit of effort.
God’s deliverance can set you free, but it is your responsibility to fight for your continued deliverance. Take control of your thoughts, and bring them under control and in line with the Word of God. Experience the glorious freedom and joy that God has for you.
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I would love to talk to you and help you work through things within your mind to fight the depression within your life. Please contact me if you like! Know that God cares and I care and I’m fighting in your corner 100 percent! God is willing and able to help you through the storm!!
Blessings
Kelsey Karnes
Psalms 40:1-3
Hi
I lost all my family, I know depression. My husband has it too. My toughest battle is showing him that all the sad thoughts we have, we must let go of them. Satan wants you to believe you are not in control, but you are. Make a choice. It’s not easy, it’s hard. You will have to remind yourself 50 times in a day to choose another thought. But be resolute!!! Be defyiante!!! God is for you! You can and you will succeed.
Hi. How can I help a friend who has depression that keeps coming back. she suffers depression at least 3x a year. We are friend and business partners so it really affects our team. She has so much fear and thinks everybody is against her. She was healed of sciatica, We have been praying for her and Jesus healed her, but everytime she feels depressed the pain keeps coming back too. How can I help her, she listens to me, but sometimes I feel overwhelmed.
Hi Joyce,
Do you and your friend fellowship together around God’s Word? Some times folks think that others have more faith than they do, and they do not have the confidence to believe for their own healing or deliverance. Helping someone begin to develop their own faith has to be centered in the knowledge of God’s Word. Depression fights to keep that friend under its control by injecting thoughts of the past and the emotions that go with them. I would suggest that you try to get her to seek out scriptures on health and healing and try to get her to learn how to confess those scriptures over her life. The shift has to change from you to God. It isn’t easy but if you go over the scriptures with her it might help her to begin her path to complete freedom.
I believe medication is also sometimes necessary to help in the process, read shiela walsh book
I’m so sorry for your ordeal but I’m so glad that GOD has and is helping you. My sister you are on your way. PRAISE GOD HALLELUJAH
I have depression and God has not helped. I try and it doesn’t work, I feel like dying. Thanks
Dear Stop…
Let me encourage you to take that word “stop” and speak to depression today. In front of “stop”, please place “In the Name of Jesus….depression STOP!” If you are a born again child of God…God is with you…Joshua, chapter 1. If you have received Jesus as your Savior AND Lord, then you HAVE His help…(Psalms 116:8-9).
The spirit of depression can only continue in your soul (mind, will and emotions) until you rise up, take the Name of Jesus, and command it to leave you. Oh, it will try and bring back all kinds of reasons for you to be sad, mad, down, fearful, upset, and weepy. But, as a Believing One, born of God, and made in His Image, you have the God-given right to pick up God’s Word, and resist the devil. Yes, depression is OF the devil.
Death offers a way out of living and seeing God’s Goodness. Satan wants to ROB you of the blessings God has provided FOR you. Your heart is your house. Who you let in and how you fill it and what you fill it with will determine how you live or how you die.
I have fought depression many times. It is an slimy evil that is always looking for a way into the heart. Claim the delivering blood of Jesus over your mind, will and emotions. REFUSE, REFUSE, REFUSE the evil thoughts of depression. Go to Psalms 103, Ephesians, chapter one, 2 Corinthians 9:4, James 4:6-8, and read these OUT LOUD.
God NEVER fails.
God gives us His Word to use.
Use it and LIVE…
Pastor Charlotte
My dear “Stop,” I am suffering too with depression. I have for many years since childhood(was bullied heavily), but I must tell you, that you have to keep on trying. I know you don’t want to hear that, and I don’t blame you. Trust me, I know how you feel, and I know it seems impossible to defeat. Even now I am going through an episode, but I am so thankful I have found this post once I googled “get rid of depression demons.” I have said the prayer and I do feel a LIFT and less pressure, praise God! But it took me a LONG TIME before I was able to feel anything. I wouldn’t have able to “feel” this earlier this year, as I was too deep in the pit of pain and sorrow. I’ve done alot of prayer work, and I still fall off every now and then. But I still keep trying, and the Lord works with me by pulling me back in with signs that He loves me and is always with me. But you have to SEEK Him, open yourself up to receiving his grace, glory and love, and in time He will reveal himself to you. ” Seek, and ye shall find” – Matthew 7:7.
A little backstory: I am in the most trying time of my life right now. In summary, my ex husband had cheated on me and said he loved me but wasn’t in love with me. So I then separated because of my broken heart, but believed in our love and for months declared my love to him and begged him to help heal our family. But he denied God’s bond with me, divorced me and MARRIED HIS MISTRESS in the end, only months after our divorce was final! I was told rather coldly by him (he’s a Narcissist). He had been lying to me and my son, having my little boy call her by a fake name so he wouldn’t be found out. And to top it off, they go to church weekly, I guess to make it “right.” Plus the “mistress wife” thinks it “okay” to send me kind notes about my son. So I get “reminded” of this horror in my life every few weeks, and the depression grows back to it’s full capacity every time this happens. So it’s an ongoing up and down hill battle. 🙁
My family has been torn apart, and so with this divorce I have been through the darkest valley for the past two years. At first I was so depressed I couldn’t work for over a year, could barely do anything, just wanted to sleep and take meds. From this depressive life I’ve developed major insomnia, 30+ pounds, memory loss and old health problems have come back. But now that time has helped heal a good of my heart, I am able to start moving on, and NOW I am more receptive of God’s love!
You must give it time. Keep trying, and in time you will be able to feel and see God’s Grace upon you! God bless you dear! <3
Thank you all, especially Jacqueline. Your post is very important for me – now, today.
Bacause this tremendous moments comes all at once and unexpectedly.
In the darkness I reject help. I don’t want it because of deep pain and sense of injustice. Loneliness increases this mood.
Your testimony is very close to my experience … and now I feel less alone … and this is so important … simply “vital”!
I have difficulties in faith, but still in search of hope.
Gratefulness helps overcome the darkness bacause is antagonistic to sense of injustice.
The problem is that real experience of injustice and demage can lead to such feelings like hate, rancor and revenge.
I feel both of them – pain and hate – very close one to another. This is extremely danger when your harasser is unpunished or worse – laughes in your face.
Unfortunately scoffers are not rare, so my internal dialog often echoes Genesis 18:20-32.
And when I am not able to forgive, I still can repeat the prayer of Jesus: Luke 23:34 – Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.
But futher I discover my hate to myself, to my life. This can be very deep, painful, dark, ovewrheling and destructive.
This feelings cover lack of love and acceptance, especially from parents. Only the acceptance of myself with my whole story, included infant difficult experiences can give me relief. It is tears time.
This tears are so awesome … deep sense of Love – may be God – I don’t know – but I feel rescued …
Thanks again for your testimony.
Hi Jack!
Thanks for your post and response! It truly gave me the “boost” I needed yesterday, knowing what I wrote touched someone’s heart. Like I said, I’m still going through it. I’ve been up since 1:00am, being that the depression has corrupted my sleep cycle. Then the sorrowful thoughts start kicking in, and now I see myself still up at 4:00am. The whole time talking to God, pleading to Him for guidance and mental peace, trying to figure things out. I fear this may be my life for a long time, though I’m trying to change things for the better day by day…
I understand the “tremendous moments” you refer to. You get no warning at all when they come about. You don’t have time to prepare for the bad news or experiences. You turn to God for solace. But the worst part is, 9 times out of 10 you have no one around you that truly understands your pain…
…which leads me to the next topic: You rejecting help I can understand as well. Sometimes the depression is so intense that you just WANT to feel it, and let your mind and body accept it, because you know that you have a right to feel the pain. People trying to help you will often say the wrong thing, even if they don’t mean to. It’s because they don’t understand. They haven’t been through the same traumatic experience as you, so they can’t relate to the pain you feel, not 100%. And one wrong word from them will make you feel like they are just trying to make you feel worse. Thus you become a hermit in the darkness, losing time which could have been purposed to reveal precious moments. It’s really a sad, vicious cycle.
That said, I’m extremely glad that you don’t feel so alone after reading my testimony. In fact I feel very glad too that someone has gone through something similar, and can understand this dark time. Only a select few can understand the pain, the humiliation, the seemingly endless grief that can come from a situation like this. And when you do find someone that does, It lets you know that you’re not the only one in the world that has been plagued with such horrible afflictions on your life.
Yes, I understand oh too well when you apply the Christian principles of gratitude and hope, but one jab from your “harraser” – be that an ex, loved one, or anyone else that has damaged you – can take you majorly backwards. And then you’re back in that dark hole of hopelessness, anger and despair again. It’s gotten to the point that ANY contact, little note or reminder that involves my adulterous ex or his new adulterous wife brings back the betrayal and injustice that has recently happened. Just yesterday I took my son to a new restaurant, excited and glad to give him a positive experience in this troubled time. But then the poor dear told me with excitement that he had been there before – His Dad and his new Stepmom took him there recently! That sunk my heart and ruined the whole dinner for me, though I kept a smile on my face for him. It also made me realize that even living in a different city, won’t let me escape the pain.
I like your suggestion of repeating the prayer of Jesus when you’re not able to forgive, I will do that as well – never thought of that as a good solution to those moments, thanks!
May the Lord bless you my friend. In reading your post I see many conflicting thoughts and feelings. I’m so sorry you have been through so much sorrow in your life! Please take care of yourself. We also must have those moments of being “still” with God, as the good book says. I have been trying to have those moments myself, trying to relax and feel God’s grace being poured into me as I fully submit to him and surrender to his love.
The other day the Lord pointed out to me Jeremiah 29:11-12, ” ‘For I know the plans I have for you ‘ – this is the Lord’s declaration – ‘plans for your welfare, not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. You will call to Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you.’ ” This is after another period of hopeless thoughts and desperate prayer. I knew then that God had good plans for my future, and that he is definitely listening to me, and making plans for me. He has plans for you too, and like me, they will come in the right time. We just have to hang on, SUBMERGE ourselves in Christ, and press on for more Good in our lives.
Thank you also for your testimony, God Bless! 🙂
Thank you, Jacqueline, for words of comfort and encouragement. Unfortunately English is not my native language so sometimes it’s not easy for me to express my thoughts exactly as I would like (especially regarding complex and difficult issues). I find an akin experience in your testimony. Such hard to solve and permanent situations can in long-term, gradually weaken and sap our natural resilience. As you pointed out, dealing with harassment can lead to this. I can imagine how it works in your circumstances and how difficult it is to get enough and in time support from others. This is likely the reason why we both find this conversation helpful. In human and Christian perspective I pray for you for light, forces and hope to pass through your struggle, your Red Sea.
In most dark moments we receive the gift of consolation directly from Him. We are right to feel intimacy with Jesus – lonely, hated, betrayed, misunderstood… And due to this unique consolation we also can try to stop to judge others … this heals our wounds … and stops the evil cycle.
Is not bad when this spiritual approach is accompanied by some psychological work regarding roots of the tendency to attract potential abusers. I have found useful the “Schema Therapy” of Jeffrey Young and “The power of positive No” of William Ury.
Thanks again Jacqueline and God bless you 🙂
Dear Jacqueline
I’m actually writing to you 4 years after you had posted, i happen to come across this website and have been reading the comments for a while. how is your situation now? how much has changed in your life since you wrote this?
Hello Kasey,
I was nineteen when started having sleep paralysis. I did not know it by that name at the time and saw it as a direct attack by the devil, which I am sure it was. I am 65 now and have had it only rarely the past few years. Ever since the very first time I have known what to do. I believe God’s Holy Spirit was directing me. When I feel caught in the paralysis and cannot even open my mouth I call on the name of Jesus in my thoughts and keep trying to pronounce his name with my mouth. It usually comes out through clinched teeth after a struggle, and then the feeling of paralysis is broken. Then I can say Jesus’ name over and over and give Him praise and thanks for delivering me from my enemy. We cannot stop the enemy from attacking us, but there are verses in the Bible that are God’s recorded promises that He will deliver them who call upon the name of the Lord, and that is Jesus.
Your sister in Jesus,
Greta
I completely understand what you’re going through because it sounds as if you were writing what I feel and what I’ve been through . I want the same things you want and I want the new beginning. I feel like I’ve got to hang in there for my parents because they are old and can’t take care of themselves anymore . I feel as if I don’t hang in there with what I forgot I’ll have nothing . I have two sons they have no respect for me at all because of the depression . I don’t know what to do I’m just like you .
You are letting demons in by sinning. You said you have a bf? If you are engaging in sexual activity with your bf and you are not married.. You are opening yourself to demonic attacks. Sorry to say that but it’s true and you know it.
Depression and Anxiety are wicked demons which robs joy,peace and everything dear to you. Its aim is to send you to the grave prematurely but those spirits must be dealt with through prayer and fasting. As in my case, I gave my life to Christ properly and decided to take my walk seriously with God in August 2011, it was such a glorious experience. Two months just around October, unexpectedly the spirit of depression came on me so badly i couldn’t even continue my studies at university forcing me to drop out and quit my job. To cut a long story short, God delivered me through a 3 day water fast with prayers- since then i managed to go back to university in 2013 and complete my studies as well pass my driving test.
The mystery of fasting is that it humbles the soul and breaks the flesh so that the spirit of God can have total dominion over you- this is when victory is assured. During an invasion of depression and anxiety which are demonic spirits, the soul is worn out, the spirit is weakened and wounded and as a result; the body and mind becomes sluggish. But remember “They that wait on God shall renew their strength.” God is our deliverer lets not loose hope . Jesus Christ has won the victory therefore the enemy is defeated.
Hello, I am so sad by so many others suffering with anxiety and depression and completely understand as I and my children suffer at times also. I am a strong believer, most of time happy and loving life and very positive but I am as my children are under attack at times that are just so dreadful! I have prayed, anointed with oil and cleansed my house and I call out to Jesus in faith to be healed, but so often I DO NOT FEEL God’s presence and I doubt my faith. My brother suffered and ended his life. I am asking for PRAYERS PLEASE! As I too will be praying for all those here that suffer, I feel your pain. My son 16, suffers social anxiety, and is not motivated. My one daughter suffers from eating disorder and anxiety & depression and my other daughter also actually too. Please pray for us! thank you all and God bless you!
Kat,
I, too, struggle with, at times, very crippling anxiety and depression. I continue to lose so much because of these issues, and I do believe that ultimate healing will take place with prayer for one another and a sincere seeking of relationship with our Heavenly Father. I understand that place where we cannot feel His presence, and it can be so scary–I know of nothing worse than feeling that I am separated from God when I need Him the most. It is during these times that I believe Satan is indeed trying his hardest to beat us down. And, I also believe that this is the time where we need to remember God’s promises more than ever, and which can take even more effort to remember when in the midst of feelings of despair.
I want to offer you my prayer support, and may I ask the same from you? Love & hugs to you, Kat. <3
Kat….
One Name is above ALL names. His Name is Jesus. In Mark 16, Jesus told His disciples that they would CAST OUT demons in His Name.
Speak to Social Anxiety. Speak to Eating Disorder, Anxiety and Depression. Use the Mighty Name of Jesus and COMMAND them to leave your house. Continue to praise Him daily that His Name is Greater, and teach your children to use that Name, also. Don’t go by what you see, hear or feel in your children. Jesus is your Whole Armor. You are IN HIM. He IS IN you. Ephesians 6:10 tells you that you CAN STAND AGAINST all the wiles of the wicked one.
Take that as YOUR Truth, and be free from this evil in Jesus Name.
Pastor Charlotte
Hi everyone, I’m 23 years old. I studied abroad and lived in a very old apartment with two other roommates. Weird things started happening, doors would fly open, lights would turn on and off, things went missing, our doorbell would ring and nobody would be there. A few black flies would start flying around in the living room whenever we talked about it. I never in my life experienced a night terror or sleep paralysis until I was living in that apartment. I couldn’t make sense of it, I was absolutely terrified to sleep or be alone, I felt like I was being targeted or attacked because I was seen as weak. I tried to pray, I’ve never been very religious – we used to go to church when I was younger but that slowly faded. I eventually got through it (I’m not sure how) and returned home and put it behind me. I returned home at the end of December..and things were great up until about a month and a half ago, I was plagued by sleep paralysis again, and the lights on my Amazon Echo speaker next to my bed were lighting up right after it happened. I watched a stupid horror movie and I think subconsciously that I let “it” “the evil spirit” or Satan back in. I was crying and in tears and so scared, my boyfriend was with me- he’s a Christain and he prays over me, and with me. He encourages me to talk to God, to seek Him out and believe and establish a relationship with Him and bring Him into my life. I did- but I don’t think I was truly open to it. I feel like I have so many questions and honestly my belief before was to be a good person-treat everyone with love and kindness, for we are all fighting battles. I guess I tried to block it out and tell myself it’s all in my head- because when I didn’t think about it, there were never any problems. But negative and awful thoughts have been so persistent and last night I experienced sleep paralysis again. Each time it occurs I can hear myself in my dream say “it’s here” and that’s when I wake up by can’t move or scream or do anything. I’m frozen ( for what feels like forever) but in reality it’s only a few seconds. I burst into tears and this has been wearing me down- mentally, emotionally, and physically. I’m scared to go to sleep at night, I have all of these negative thoughts that keep me awake and I can’t live like this anymore, I’m miserable and scared and stressed and so anxious. I used to think I could handle this on my own and tell myself to get over it and move on and it’s all my head- but I can’t do it. I need help. I’ve been trying to take steps in the right direction, talking to God, calling upon Him and angels to guide me and protect me- to put His heavenly host around myself, my home, and my boyfriend and roommates when I sleep at my house. Just reading through these has helped me, although I know I am just beginning my journey. I will not give up and I will keep fighting, I’ve just realized that I can’t do it on my own. I want to find him, let him in my life- I guess I just don’t know how. I am going to talk with a pastor next week and a youth pastor tomorrow. Any advice and prayers, passages, anything really is appreciated. Thank you for time reading- I know it was lengthy.
I will offer up my extreme suffering for you. You must promise to refrain from watching the television as it is one of the main tools the father of lies uses. If there is something of moral value, seek within yourself if you should be watching it and The ALMIGHTY FATHER will give you a gut feeling.
Dear Kasey,
First, I just want you to know that you are not alone, and that asking for help was the wisest thing you could have done. Satan tries to keep us isolated, and tries to make us feel that if we do ask that we are weak. I will call him what he is…a liar! I would like to ask if you have received Jesus Christ as your Savior/Lord/King? You mentioned not being religious but having gone to church. That is good, but what will bring heaven’s help to you is realizing that Jesus loves you and wants to live in you. I suggest you go to Romans 10:9-10. Read it carefully, and then simply do what it instructs you to do. Next, go to the Book of Ephesians and again just read the first chapter very carefully. The Word of God is alive and will bring light to your heart about God’s love for you. Please let me know about this. I do not want to do anything further until you have. I care about you and will be glad to help in any way I can.
Pastor Charlotte
Justin, thank you for your reply and for your support. It means so much to me.
Charlotte, thank you for your reply, I really appreciate it as well. As far as receiving Jesus Christ as my Savior/Lord/King, I would very much like to, actually I would love to and I need to, I guess I am just not sure how to do that. I read Romans 10:9-10 and chapter 1 of Ephesians and I wholeheartedly want to believe that with everything inside of me. I read them and I just feel this sense of unease and not being sure? I don’t know why I feel this way when I want it so badly. It’s like I say it but I’m not fully believing it myself or that I can say it with 100% conviction? I’m not totally sure, I just need to learn how to cast away my fears and accept Jesus as my Lord/Savior/King. I I know this is the next step, I just need help and guidance on how to get there. Thank you so much.
Kasey…how are you?
Pastor Charlotte
Hi, Kasey!, I have gone thru the same thing too… and I didn’t even know what it was….. first time I was 16 it happened to me while I was coming back home from school… in the school bus its like I fell asleep and it happened to me it was pretty weird it kept on happening to me every now and then and I was scared to go to sleep sometimes, I heard voices, it only kept on getting worse…..
I was saved at 24, and I can honestly tell you that thanks to God, it has never happened to me again; now I know what that was it was a demon bothering me or many demons only God knows….. also scary movies and shows have spirits too… that can also trigger those attacks….. I have stopped watching “scary stuff” and stuff about demon posessions, exorcisms and all those movies that are always out at the theaters……..
I thank the Lord for saving me everyday, and I wish the best for you, many blessings over you and your family life, pray a lot and seek God and his word daily its as easy as downloading the bible app and having the widget on your phone that tells u the verse of the day or even listening to the audio bible within the same app…
Hi, my reply was for Sophie who was depressed over her husband. Cheers
I would say to you that you should focus on what is within the realms of what you can control. Realise that your husband is replaying a repeated pattern and seperate yourself mentally and emotionally from it. Your only trusted source of joy, peace and happiness comes from your Lord Jesus and it should remain this way for all our days on earth as people can easily let you down and hurt you. What we must realise about relationships is that people’s choices and will is something that can only be changed by the individual. God won’t change it. All you can do is pray that God will move on Him by His Spirit, and His heart condition will determine how He responds. Read the parable of the sower to understand. The heart is the soil. He has committed to you in marriage which is a covenant and God expects him to honour it through thick and thin. I’m writing this as an outsider to encourage you to adopt the right perspective so that you will successfully win the battle raging in your mind. The enemy can try and flood your mind with thoughts of hopelessness and depression all he likes. If you have the right mindset and your mind is fixed and meditating on the word, all negative thoughts will be brought captive. They cannot stand against the power of God’s word embedded in the heart and mind of a believer who hears and does The Word. God bless from a brother in Christ who cares.
God met me and picked me up when I was down last week. I went to Hillsong church and the preacher’s main word in the message was ‘it is what it is, but it’s not what it seems’. He used the example of Abraham and Sarah in the bible when God told them that they would have a son. They hoped against all hopes and believed because God said it. Do the same sister and you will win!
I’m in a place of desperation. I’m coming under attack from Satan in a mighty way. My marriage is horrible and it seems hopeless . I’ve cried out to God and prayed about it until I don’t know what else to do. I’m left with a spirit of heaviness and depression. I feel like ever since I met my husband it has been one problem after the next. I prayed about him when I first met him and I believed I had met the right one. My 2 daughters are suffering daily and everyone is angry and hurt and lost. My daughters are 10 and 12. My husband has made us leave our home about 8 of 9 times for weeks at a time since we got married in 2014. He tells everyone his life is messed up cause he made bad decisions trying to make me happy. But that’s totally untrue. He walked off his job and then I begged him to go back do he did and a few days later after that he fought a man and the job fired him So now he can’t go back. He has left a few other jobs since then. He always says mean things about me to his friends and neighbors so they will think he is this wonderful man that has an unreasonable wife. They can’t realize he has had 2 other wives that he said the same thing about . He blames me for all his bad decisions but he will say no body made him make his decisions he just have to live with them . But I know when he talks to people without me being present he blames all his mess on me. I am totally miserable and I wish God wouldn’t be so quiet. I am a Christian and I believe in God with all my heart but I feel like I have allowed this mess I’m in to pull me away from the relationship in some instances. I pray all the time but I feel like God has been quiet and hasn’t given me the answers on what to do. I need direction. I need to know how much longer do I need to bare this heartache and depression. I want a new beginning so desperately. I have wanted to fix my marriage but it seem that all my husband seem to care about is saving his things like his car and the house so he want have to explain to his friends and neighbors what happened and how he failed. I don’t seem to matter . I’m so tired of hurting and not having friends or family to talk to or even give me wise counsel cause it’s every man for his self in my family . My sisters don’t really care and my mother advocate just getting a divorce. She’s very quick to point me to all the negative things in life. Some days I want out but I’m hanging in here for my kids. I wish I knew what to do to make this better. Some one help me please! I would appreciate all the prayers I could get.
Fast and pray for three days knowing that what you ask for will be received and given to you by THE MOST HOLY FATHER.
For “Pastorchar59”
Regarding depression:
I can totally relate to your comment on: “If, someone deliverers a un-wanted package” to us.
We should want to: “Return To Sender”.
I’ve been stuck in an abusive marriage; for longer than I would like to admit. And, to a husband
who is a luke warm Christian. Nothing seems to stick with him long enough; for any real change
in his heart and behavior. I’m now at the point of just walking away from him; and letting God
take over. I can only fight so many battles; knowing Jesus is the ONE who should be fighting
most of the battles. My husband has now been fired from at least 15 jobs; which breaks my heart.
But, his stubborn pride and defiant personality took control over everything in our lives. It’s
caused my husband to loose friends, family and yes, all of those precious jobs that God had blessed
him with. Several pastors have agreed with me in counseling; that my husband is stuck in a cycle
that he may / or may never break free from. So, now I’m stuck for the time being living in the same
apartment with him. Knowing I may have to leave. I’m alone in this; so to speak. Even, my Christian
brother and Christian sister: won’t budge an inch to reach out and help me a little bit. I had hoped
my sister would let me live with her until I can get my feet on the ground; and start working. The only
thing she really says in her emails to me: “you, have to own this”. That seems pretty harsh coming
from a direct family member who is a Christian. My brother is taking the same stance. If, my brother
or sister came to me; asking for help .. I wouldn’t even think twice. I would open my heart and my home
to them. Somedays it really hits me hard; that I’m living in a harsh, harsh world. Even, my own family
has turned away from me. All, they say is that I should stay in a long term women’s shelter. My brother
even travels into my area; often to see his son. He won’t even meet with me for a quick cup of coffee; just
so we can see each other after 8 years. I love my brother and sister in spite of how they have treated me; over the years. My brother has opened up and has verbally hurt me several times over the years. He knew he was wrong; and should have immediately asked for forgiveness. I don’t even think any of what he said; even “phased” him one bit. How, am I supposed to feel about my family who are “playing” at being Christians ..? I have never hurt either one of them., ever. Instead, I have been the one holding out the olive branch, loving them, being kind, etc. I would be lying if I said this hasn’t deeply hurt me. I finally sat down, and sent my sister a long email; hoping she might be able to see my point of view. I didn’t attack her or point blame in the email. I typed it out with grace and a open heart; as best as I could do. I really would like for a spirit of forgiveness to take over; hoping my brother and sister are not ashamed of me for staying in a abusive marriage. I realize, I should not have stayed in this for as long as I have. Pastor; I feel like I’m standing in a tiny circle; and I need to step out of so I can move forward in any other direction. I’m praying all the time. Crying out for the holy spirit to come down and help for direction. I really don’t know what God, wants me to do right now ..? At this point in my life; I only want what God, wants for me. If, he wants me to go somewhere new; that’s fine with me. But, I’m so tired of living like this. I need to start my life over.
Bless your heart!
I mean it, Lord, I release blessings upon you today, in Jesus Name. I have read your heart’s cry and want you to know TODAY that God, the Holy Spirit IS WITH YOU! He lives in you. I went through a very difficult marriage myself, i.e., drugs, rejection, and emotional abuse UNTIL I got ahold of God’s Word for myself, and began to seek Him in that Word until revelation Truth came to me and showed me what to do. I’m sure, like my family, everyone was very angry over how you are being treated, but, feeling helpless at the same time, because they do have to stand back and wait for you to make the ultimate decision. No one can do that for you, as to how you want to proceed with your life. Humanly speaking, it is your decision. BUT!!!!! You are NOT just human. You HAVE GOD IN YOU!! You are born again, and God Himself lives in that wonderful place of reconciliation WITH you.
I want you, please, to go to Roman 8 today. The Word of God will give you strength to see your way clear. God does not want you to suffer, my dear. If you have done all you can to save this marriage, and your husband does not want to change, then YOU must make hard decisions that will lead you to a place of peace and rest. My personal email is pastorchar59@yahoo.com. Please keep me abreast of your prayer needs.
I BELIEVE today, right now, that God, the Holy Spirit, is surrounding you with favor and with guidance that will give you the courage to take those steps to living a life of joy and peace. If Jesus was standing right in front of you, holding out His precious nail scarred Hand to lead you to freedom, would you take it??? Sure, you would. Well, He IS with you, and all you need is HIM!!!! I am praying for you. YOU CAN do all things through Christ Who strengthens you, and His Love for you will not fail you.
Don’t worry about no church that hurt you. You are the church and if don’t nobody wanna be in your life that’s their business. That doesn’t mean that there is anything wrong with you. Dust your feet off. Don’t trust men trust God. You have to forgive that’s how you get over this. Even if you don’t want to tell the Lord about it all and why keep your communication with Him always. Be blessed. Greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world. Your mess will be your message. See you on the other side.
Hold on to GOD, HE’S an ever present help in the time of trouble. GOD has purpose for you, your life was not an accident, God is going to use all the mess you’ve been in to a message (testimony).This is not your battle it’s the LORD. Turn from your emotions and bow to the LORD and wait on HIM, HE will show up and fight your battle. HIS you me is easy and HIS burden is light. Lean on HIM and trust in HIM for HE cares for you.
As I read your post, I can’t help but relate to a lot. I’m so lost, confused and depressed much of the time. I try hard but I keep getting attacked. I too have list someone, and it really tore me apart. I have a hard time dealing with it and accepting it. There’s alot more to the story. Too much to write about. All I know, is I can’t seem to pick myself up. If I do its for a couple of days then I struggle….feeling down and suicidal. I do what I need to get me out of it but it takes awhile and returns days later……really testing my faith.
I need help!!!
I do pray, I go to church and I thank god. What am I doing wrong. I’m trying harder than I ever have!!! No peace!!! No relief and no answers. I keep feeling like I’m a black sheep and excluded from gods grace and love. I really do feel like this. I know it’s not true and I try and change that thinking but all my life I’ve had challenges. From an infant to adulthood. When is it going to stop. I’m now 43 and it keeps a coming. Help me!!! Pray for me to be healed of hurt and have peace. Pray to rid myself of anxiety, depression and suicidal thoughts. All I want is for these feelings to go away…..so I could have peace.
I will offer up my physical and mental sufferings for you.
Justin
Cat – It is a spirit that has attached to your life and is attacking you. Read the articles on deliverance and those by Derek Prince on this site. You have authority over this thing in Jesus Name.
Dear Cat ..
What your going through; really touched a chord in me just now. Because; I’m going
through trials with emotions and depression. And, they do “feel” like they are never ending at times.
Life, isn’t easy; and certain days do feel like a major challenge. I hate depression; and it feels very
“unfair”. With all of my heart, mind and soul = I too just want it to dissapear; so I can feel like
a whole person again. I truly believe: they only way to do this is to trust in Jesus for healing.
It’s … HIS … time; HIS … way. We have to “be ready”; for his help, guiding hand, and wisdom to take
over.
I’m trying to dig deeper into why these emotions can feel like they are
covering us at times. Wanting to really know … why. And, those day’s when you feel; like you
are strong enough to fight them off; but they come back when you least expect them to. I know
without a doubt; that when we draw closer to Jesus; the enemy is usually right around the
corner attacking us when we are feeling weak. No, matter what: stay with Jesus. Stay with him;
even when you don’t feel like it. Even, when you want to just give up. Run, to him. Cling to him !
He knows your heart and your feelings. Don’t give up on him. He loves YOU . . . sister.
Carl, my last 10 yrs have been very much like yours. I will pray for you. God bless you and keep you.
THANKS MARSHA AND I WILL PRAY FOR U ALSO.
God gave me a miraclous healing from depression. I was depressed for getting to two months. I was helpless and felt so empty and abandoned. My heart was so heavy to the extent that my nervous system was affected, my limbs were shaking One night after reading the advice and praying with the suggested scripture passages on this page and went to be d. I went into a trance and I felt God’s deliverance, the heaviness in my heart was like smoke of fire and was being released out. I felt the hotness as the smoke rolled away.i slept as I have never done in the past days , I woke up in the morning totally delivered. I give God all the Glory! Thanks a lot
One think that I was recommended was to make sure that I had forgiven everyone that had hurt me in any way. You see, the Lord asks us to forgive those who offends us. In order for Jesus to work in your life to heal you, forgive those who you have not forgive. I would do a list from the names of people I need to forgive from the moment of conception. God bless!
I can’t deal with my depression I feel sad sometimes am happy but today I feel so sad I feel alone ,my husband of 22 years cheated on me I been there for him in so many ways even when he was dealing with a crack addiction now left with 3 kids one is on his own never even remembers me nomore he has his own life I know my two youngest ones need me but honestly I can’t deal with this nomore I feel so alone with no family to help I was adopted and abuse by them I grew up in foster homes where do I turn now what can I do no medication has helped me I ask God to help me and don’t abandoned me
Please hold onto Jesus hand and let him lead you. Depression is an awful thing has I myself suffer from it and feel alone I also went into the care system has a child and if it wasn’t for holding onto Jesus I can truly say I wouldn’t be here now. But you can make it through all this by drawing closer to Jesus and taking rest in him sometimes its these very painful times that makes our faith grow stronger and the worst thing with depression is it makes you feel so alone but that’s not the truth there are people there who love you and need you and want to see you get better but the depression clouds this veiw from you so you cannot see the truth. The fact you have posted on here means God is looking out for you and wanting you to know that you are not alone and that he loves you very much and one day all this will come to pass and you will look back and realise that it was a growing time and a time that made your relationship with Jesus much stronger with Jesus we have everything and if you had been the only one on earth he still would have sent his son to die on the cross for you because you are loved and wanted, stay strong my friend love jenny x
Jenny . . .
Thank you for your comment. You, are right about one thing: we all need to just put our hand in Jesus’s hand
and let him take our burdens, our baggage, our broken hearts and hurt. Over time; he can turn our sadness and hurt into something
more beautiful. This, is what I’m hoping and praying for. ( Lord, turn this sadness into something beautiful . . .).
Knowing that down the road; we might be able to use this as our testimony in helping someone who is hurting.
Some of these battles; really aren’t our battles to be fighting. I read an interesting
book years ago called: “This Present Darkness” by Frank Perretti . You, can find it in most Christian bookstores.
It’s not a scare tactic book by any means. Only, to help us see that there are spiritual battles going on around us.
God has not left you, He will never leave you nor forsake you, put your trust in Him and everything will be alright
Faith without works is dead James 2:17. God’s will is to heal everyone . not because who we are but because who he is. just received it in Jesus name. Jesus paid it all.
Mark 11:24 “Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours” Jesus loves you so much 🙂
Isaiah 53:5 “But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes we are healed.”
We have to received by faith. Read (Rom 4:16 ) God Has Allotted to Each a Measure of Faith read Romans 12:3. And Romans 10:17. So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.
Lianna I have great sympathy for you and I will pray for you. My name is carl and you almost described my life except I wasn’t fortunate enough to keep my marriage together through all the debilitating and crippling affects of depression as you have. I was divorced 10 yrs ago and you can’t imagine how much harder overcoming depression is when you lose almost everything you love and you have to go on all alone in this world. I could go on forever but I will stop right there and just say I will pray for your deliverance and I hope u will pray for mine too.
Reading these posts has made me realize I am not alone and God is always with me. I have been struggling with depression for about 2 months now and I have never been in this place! My husband for 16 years has now had to leave 5 days out of.the week to work out of town and this has killed me! We have 2 kids together and we always have done everything together always! This is been hard on all of us. I have let the devil really get to me and bring me so far down I don’t even want to get out of the bed all I want to do is sleep the time away and not think! I can’t do it anymore! I don’t want to go to.work because of the people I work work are aweful! I have no one to talk to at work no friends there at all! It’s so hard! I feel like this is not where God wants me to be but I am so unsure about it because it’s the most money I have ever made and I am afraid I won’t find anything else like it. But on the other hand I feel.God has something bigger and better for me I am just scared of not having a job!! Please pray for me and my family that the Lord will help me and my husband and I pray he will soon be back workin in town.
Shmily, I hope you are feeling much better. I’ll keep you and your family in my prayers. In order to be happy we need to let go of what makes us unhappy. If your job is making you feel bad, its better if you find a better job even it pays less. Feeling happy where you work is priceless. God Bless you and your family always. You will get through this. God has a plan for all of us. 🙂