by Rex Rouis
Even in the midst of blessings, people can have recurrent fits of depression. It comes in like a dark, heavy cloud. We pray, fast, or make resolutions, only to find it getting worse. That is because this cloud of depression is not mental; it is spiritual. It is called the spirit of heaviness.
“To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified.” Isaiah 61:3
It is an evil spirit—a personality that studies us, knows our weaknesses, and knows how and when to attack. Recognizing the identity of an enemy is a tremendous first step, but then it must be fought.
It shall come to pass, that whosoever shall call on the name of the LORD shall be delivered. Joel 2:32
Meditate on scriptures like the one above and pray: “God, in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ – according to Your Word – I’m asking you to deliver me from this spirit of heaviness in Jesus Name.”
The pressure will lift, but it is one thing to be delivered; it is another thing to stay delivered. It is now up to us to reprogram our minds – to cultivate a different outlook and way of thinking. Before deliverance, we are not able to do it, but now after deliverance, it is our responsibility to do it.
The problem is our mind. The devil reaches people through their minds. The more we trust in our mind, the more Satan is able to use it against us. It is up to us to make our mind realize that it is our servant, not our master. Our minds are affected by our thoughts, so we must take charge of what we think.
For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh, 4 for the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but [b]divinely powerful for the destruction of fortresses. 5 We are destroying speculations and every lofty thing raised up against the knowledge of God, and we are taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ, II Corinthians 10:3-5
Remember, just as heaviness is a real spirit, the God of the Bible is a real Person, and He is behind each promise. He promised them to you for a reason – to help you. Read them, study them, meditate on them. They will give you hope and they will change you. It will not come in five minutes. It will take hard work, but it will come and it will work, and it is worth every bit of effort.
God’s deliverance can set you free, but it is your responsibility to fight for your continued deliverance. Take control of your thoughts, and bring them under control and in line with the Word of God. Experience the glorious freedom and joy that God has for you.
Comments
Great insight I am blessed.
Stephen, I hope you’re still checking in. I want to tell you that you can make it through this depression. I say this because I’ ve been going through the same depressive state which started about this time (fall) 2015. I know that sounds bad but it gets better. You can not allow yourself to give in to it. You will get better over time and as you do get better you will be able to do more which will lead to more improvement over time. Just don’t t give up. Please read the information on this site it will help you build faith and hope in your life. I’ll pray for you and I believe others are as well. God bless and keep you.
Thank you for this column.I too am going through depression.It started from the age of 19.I will not go into detail about it but picture those living under the roof were one is your step mother or step father.At one time i would fall and at one time stagger when walking.NO support materially and emotionally,being alone.Thank God i managed to get a job at 20 and managed to improve my education but disaster striked when i was hijaked and i lost everything in 2014 and ws supsosd to graduate last year.This degree i thought ws my bridge hs left me hopeless.With no one helping me to finish my studies i sometimes feel unloved and unworthy.Depression is affecting me plz help me in prayer and for God to intervene.I want to finish my studies
I am beyond despair. I feel I cannot go on like this, the depression has consumed me and I’m totally ruled by dark emotions. Therapy, anti-depressants, exercise, prayer, nothing is lifting it. I’m crying, sleeping, hating, scared, desperate. Please help. Please.
Please pray. I feel completely hopeless even though I’m reading declaring and decreeing the scriptures. I’ve tried everything prayer, counsel, Medici e, supliments, diet I need a miracle.
Lisa, Do not give up. I believe you will receive a miracle. You will become stronger in time. I also understand how you feel as I’ve experienced depression myself. Just keep reading the promises and know that in time you will come out on the other side. Just said a prayer for you as I believe others have as well. God bless you and do not give up.
Update. Tonight he told me I did not care for him. And that he will be headed to the city where he was in which his father and his new wife are living. This man’s mother passed back in March 2014. Unfortunately, he did not go to her rest in place, the family cremated her. He claims his mother is the only one who showed love and cared for him. Serious backlashes he gives to me stating he hates my guts. God needs to be with him. I pray that God leads him to Him. I’m just so sad that with a beautiful and second chance that I have in life I thought he was the one. He tried and choked me tonight. It’s become now a survival mode to me. I cannot go back to bed. It’s wholeheartedly become trusting the word of God. And I hear groaning from him saying it’s going to take me time. But I have to leave Monday. Your not going with me.
Somehow I knew that he would leave but hurt me was not what I had in store. Let alone go through. Very strong minded and willed to believe God will say and do what He promised. It’s not a season or time. It’s going to be open but not for long. Readily, I’m commenting let someone know I’m hoping a person like myself will get out and get the help she needs. Or he needs. It’s time to to take a stand. He states to me while.im writing he cannot be himself here he’s afraid and scared. Can’t do it. He’s sick and tired of being like this.
I’m into leaning on Gods everlasting arms through my ordeal. I’m not Good. I can pray for him out loud. But asking him to state and repeat after me for salvation. He says no he’s scared. Scared of what? Believing that it will be over. That I won’t be scared no more. It’s time for churches to rise up and go to the streets in our cities and communities. God will put on you more than you can bear. We don’t need to be afraid. God does not give us a spirit of fear. In Jesus name. But as we depart I. The next few days, I’ll be going homeless. So I ask that you pray for me. I supervise and cashier in the retail world. God bless you all. I’ve read but will need to be prayed and I need to accounted for in my heart. My heart is troubled for what he had just put me through. But I’ll withstand the devil. For God gave me the armor for spiritual warfare. In the Name of Jesus.
I’m into someone. I care about him and he says I don’t and that is depressing to me. I’m going through life with a man that states he seen abuse and watched his father beat his mom up. And let alone had to at the age of 17 beat on his father cause he couldn’t stand his father beating his mom up one night. Now mind you, this man is 40 yrs old. Remembers to this day, and is tired of going to jail. He is afraid to let go of the anger. He claims he don’t know how to give it to God. Seriously though, he does not like leaving his apartment and will not tempt to leave to go to the store or go out to dinner just to get away from and breathe of fresh air for once. Nope. He says he is afraid, afraid of something going to happen . I go to jail or get somebody hurt.
Hubby and I going thru spiritual warfare Luke 9:1 10:17 helpful also Luke 18:7 ephesians 6 2 corinthians 4:17 1 corinthians5:4,5 prayer works fellowship praise worship meditate on God’s word it sends the holy spirit breaks chains strongholds go bible based church that believes in spiritual warefarekeep the faith God will deliver us
I have seen been dealing with depression every since my mom past away from cancer the doctor gave me zolft to take for it what are some scriptures that can help me with that
Hi Tiffany
This is one of the scripture that i pray and ask God to heal my heart because His word says so
Psalms 47 :3 He heals the brokenhearted
And binds up their wounds.
Hi Tiffany, I am on Zoloft right now for my depression. I will tell you that it does help calm down deep sorrowful feelings and anxiety, but if you have a HUGE amount of drama in your life right now, it may not be enough to make you feel super calm. My Zoloft didn’t start really working until after my last divorce trial that my ex husband forced me to endure. At the same time someone did identity theft on me and I was out of $2000 for a month. After all this drama, when life got a little calmer, the Zoloft started working. But you should take it now, everyone’s body is different & it may work for you right away!
More than anything Tiffany, keep a close relationship with God throughout this trial. I am sorry for your loss, God will be your BFF to talk to and bless your heart, even when you don’t realize it. Praying for you!
K Renea, if you are still on this site, I want to say that I resonate with your hopelessness. My circumstances aren’t quite so lonely, but I believe I have lost hope in Christ. I turn to the word every day, but feel empty or angry because I don’t see the point of all this suffering. Not only in myself, but in the good people around me. I am just wondering if you are doing better than you were in April, and if you have regained strength and hope?
Hello , i wanted to tell you a quick testimony of mine . i was once at a point when i didnt understand why as soon as i began my walk with God that i started going through so much torment , i felt hopeless and very isolated and alone. I would cry out to God and i felt like he didnt hear me , and honestly felt like i had snuck into the kingdom of heaven . So much would pass through my mind and eventually suicide creeped in. When i felt like i couldnt take it anymore and was ready to give up , God tugged on my heart to go the altar at church and i began to ball my eyes out and that day i felt everything that was tormenting me lifted out from my mind. I now have the understanding that once we become christians the bible doesnt say we dont go through trials , we do . And it prepares us “to take heart because christ has overcome the world . We dont grieve like the world who has no hope , we have hope and the God of comfort and peace . His promise to us that there will be a day when he wipes away all our tears , there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. I encourage you to pray to God, hold onto to what you know and ask him to reveal truths to you. And i believe whatever you’re going through God will turn it around , and you will comfort others with the same comfort you have recieved from christ.
Answering in reference Mark’s comment:
I hope I understood well what Mark commented about prayer. I just have to reply.
Prayer is NOT unbelief. There are different levels or types of prayer. What most believers seem aware of is the asking part. Prayer is much more than that and goes deeper if we want an intimate walk with God.
Philippians chapter 4,I believe verse 8 says”Be anxious for nothing but in everything by prayer and supplication with Thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God….”
Thanksgiving is part of prayer. We thank God for the great things He has done ,and will continue to do in the future. Supplications are earnest pleadings. Then prayer if Faith involves speaking God’s Word over our circumstances and agreeing it is already done. James 5 says the prayer if Faith will heal the sick.
So prayer is spiritual warfare. Luke 18 verses 1 to 8, Jesus uses the story of the unrighteous judge to tell us it is okay to keep asking God for something,as long as we doing in Faith and it is not contrary to the Word.
I agree many times after prayer we have to move and do something. If praying for a nice place to live you gonna still need to go out check some properties or make inquiries. You can be prayerful and still hardworking and do your part,then God does his part.
When prayer is combined with the Holy Spirit it Powerful and effective.
The prayers of a righteous man ow woman are powerful and avail much,per Apostle James.
terrie, with all due respect, Jesus mother is dead, she cannot help you! Jesus and him alone is more than what you need! (His word) exalt Jesus, act on his word equals victory! Wrong teaching will kill us! I was Catholic until I was 25, I know what I’m talking about. Without acting on the word of God (Jesus) religion is worthless! No Holy Spirit= no Jesus= deception and blindness= death! Sounds hard but the truth in Jesus by the power of his Holy Spirit acting on his word is the only victory we have!
Dear K Renea.
I hate to hear that you are suffering. But know that your are not alone. There are many many Christian (incl. Myself) who suffer from anxiety, depression and fears. We know it is spiritual. But it manifest in our souls (mind, will, emotions) and we even experience physical symptoms.
And the only true deliverance can only come from the Word of God.
I encourage you and others who suffer from this, to put the Word of God in the forefront of your life. Read it. Speak it out laud. Listing to encouraging Pastors. And the Word will do it’s job.
But you must take your eyes of your husband.
Your husband is not your problem.
He is probably overwhelm himself. They don’t know how to help us.
Jesus gave us mercy. Give your husband mercy.
He can’t deliver you from this torment. Only God can. So choose to forgive your husband. And choose to focus on the Lord Jesus.
Make Him your Lord. Invite Him to guide your into the freedom and wholeness He already paid for.
This is a process.
It will take time.
Be patient with yourself.
When those anxiety symptoms come. Remind yourself, that’s just a symptom nothing can happen to me.
God got me. He will not fail me.
Practice this till your mind will catch up with the truth.
Sometimes the enemy lied to us so much. That it became a stronghold in our minds.
So we must fight against it.
And we will win.
Believe me I know it’s very hard. But it’s is doable. Remember I am in renewing my mind myself to the truth.
I pray that Father God will grant you a spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him. To open up the eyes of your understanding to the truth. And expose the enemy in every area of your life. And infuse inner strength into your inner man. That you can fight the good fight of faith. And enter into the promises of God.
In Jesus mighty name. Amen
GOD and HIS WORD: THIS IS MY STRENGTH and SONG[Exodus 15:2; Isaiah 12:2; Habakkuk 3:18, and 19]
K Renea, you need to get to a real church, one as like Rex believes. aloneness is not good! you need Godly counsel and encouragement on a continual basis. my wife andi arelooking for people like you in our lives but we sit alone, dont get it, we just trust Jesus the way the word teaches it. you need the Spirit of Jesus in a person, i pray that for you!!!
First time on here and I am grateful to God that I found this site. I have read this topic about *depression*. I have struggled with this for about half my life, but I never acknowledged it. To be honest I am not here for myself, but for my 25 year old son. Do not get me wrong, I know that I need help from brothers and sisters in Christ. But for now I want to say this about my son . He as well is going through *depression*. Tonight at 9:45 pm he texted me and I never expected such a text from him . I read it more than once and then immediately answered him and begin to pray for him. after I was done with my prayer, I went to my husband and told him about our son on what he had texted me. we prayed together and I walked out of the room. now mind you I am not panicking or crying hard like a baby. but yet it still tugged at my heart what he had sent me. I continued praying and praying. I felt in me to go check up on him, he lives maybe 15 minutes away from us. it was a stormy night , but I did not care. that is my baby and mama wants to go see how he is. well, I get there and all is dark…I stay sitting in the truck just staring and observing the house the vehicles. I felt God in me to start praying for my son and anoint the house and all the surroundings of their property. I prayed and prayed and prayed. I sent a text to my son after and I waited to see if he would answer. I believe that he had fallen asleep , so I left with the Faith that God had everything in his hands. I get home …..I start praying again and I am wanting to give something to my son that he can read to let him know he is not alone in this STORM. now , many other people may have approached this situation differently. But I felt I did what I could as a mother this night. I am not done supporting my son in this time of need. I am here for him anytime, any day for as long as I have breath in me. I have a lot to say and describe in detail what this is all about. I may be typing sloppy and all, but I pray you know what I mean and am saying. Tonight, my son had texted me that he was not happy, he was and has been very depressed and he wanted to take his life. that his wife hated him , things I did not know. as a mother I feel like a failure, and I pray with all my heart that he will find peace, joy and love from whom really loves him. that is JESUS CHRIST OUR LORD. LIKE I said there was more that was said, but I believe in my heart that God is going to WIN! ALL I ask brothers and sisters is to please pray for my son. I have complete faith that God will work through each and everyone of you. his name is Eric…….my 2nd oldest son. he has a great big heart, he knows God. But somewhere in between God only knows why he is going through all this. I pray he puts this all in Gods hands and rebukes this in Jesus name. I will never give up and I will continue praying for my son and see the victory that God has made. God bless you all!
Dear Father, I pray for Eric, that you will lift the Spirit of heaviness from him and set him free in Jesus name! Give him a hope and peace that cannot be taken away. Whatever the enemy has stolen from him, I pray that it will be restored to him, in Jesus name, amen.
You’re a loving mother, am 29 years old, am going through similar situation your son ia going through, one thing am grateful for is that I have my parents to support me both in prayer and encouragements, even friends, I know for a fact, God the Father will deliver your son and I, with every other person that needs help from him, my little advise is , ask him about is thoughts, it helps me when i can tell people how i feel, and they support me. Looking forward to hear from you.
i can relate alby, only differance i havea great wife! all i can encourage you with is always keep trusting Jesus! i wish i had an easy answer butthere isnt one.i pray Jesus send you just onekindred spirit to encourage each other!!!all i can say is walk where He has you,holding on to Him (Jesus) Youve come too far to distrust now!!! i had a wife kick me out (law papers) 3 young children of which i was alienated, she wanted no part with Jesus! yup ,not easy but you walk where you are with Jesus.regardless of our feelings trust the faithfull one! some things are difficult to understand! as much as you feel alone you are not, your reward is great!!! now!!! and eternally! continue your faithfulness!!!
Hello Alby,
You can talk to Jesus anytime you need to. He is always available. You may need to see a Christian counselor a few times a week. God works through His people.
I am here…don’t know what to say….Been like ….on stage…performing…The perfect mom, provider, sister, daughter……I don’t get off stage because I have been looked upto, seeked for guidance, All my life…Than, must add I do truly feel I was blessed to have Jesus’s heart.”so I do help, do for others so joyously……I will seek a stranger to talk to whenI feel I can’t hold on one more second…I am alone….divorced, parents passed…Children very alienated…..Why do I feel so many people pretend. …..? I truly don’t…Where can I find true caring people….I am not coping…not living…
K. Renea
I have had ADD and depression my whole life (I am 56). Worse, I have panic (anxiety) attacks and start to feel so very lonely. My husband is home only 2 hours a day other than sleeping at night and I work from home. I am 6 hours away from family and see them rarely.
My Dad die in 1995 and I watched him suffer from cancer for 2 years. But it was his last 2 weeks at home under the care of hospice, that did me in. He was awake on a Sunday and then gradually slept longer. He was afraid to die, I know, I saw it. He did not speak. It suffocated me knowing he was laying there knowing he was going to be in another place very soon. He was a Christian but as most of us I am guessing during tis time the doubts were flowing. I became very sick with feeling anxious and as though I could not breathe. Since he passed I have been a beautifully painted house with no furniture inside and have pulled it off pretty well by hiding my feelings and allowing no one near. I always turn to God and read the Bible for hope. But I really believe I am going to lose it one day.
I have stressed so much that I have had 7 mini strokes and worried the big one may come soon. I just get so bad I want to run, I do not want the night to come and I feel so very hopeless. I am generally a fun and talkative person. I do enjoy life but this devilish thing keeps trying to creep on in and stay. I will be in the middle of folding clothes, or cooking and start to freak out with the feeling I will be in tis same house, with this same man and away from my kids for the rest of my life. If it were up to me I would hop a plane and take nothing but t-shirt – shorts – toothbrush and my dog and go to an Island to live simple and have more time. I feel my life flying by and I see nothing good ahead of me. My husband is 57 and has had heart failure 3 times, needs back surgery to replace 2 crushed discs and both knees replaced. He has sit down. He works, but will not get fixed. He was 200 lbs until this started in 2010 and has gained up to 325 now.
My life is over. If he does nothing I can not do anything as well. No intimacy in 7 years. I feel old, lost and alone. I am a Christian and will not commit suicide – but I think about it all the time.
I am afraid. No one understands what a sick feeling panic and anxiety attacks give a person. I do not like feeling out of control and I am 2 seconds from crossing that line. Then I start to realize that this has to be the devil controlling me. I hate him for that. . I fight it and fight it hard. I HATE taking medication.
Why cant I be normal! Why cant I be like my friends and enjoy life? I blame it all on my husband for being selfish and not getting fixed so we can walk together, travel, etc. I have to carry everything, bags of ice, cases of water, groceries and I do everything at home as well as work full time. I am tired. Tired of living. This is not what I signed up for. But I promised God that I would be a good wife and never leave if he would just give me the brains to make the right decision in marrying the right man. Now what?????????????? I cant stop crying and he (my husband) tells me I am selfish and a dreamer. Well, dreamer, yes, I believe I am. I dream of the time we can spend together enjoying conversation instead of a quick dinner and one hour of TV at night and in the mornings.
I am losing it and I don’t know how or what to say to God. I do not know if I should stay or go. Am I in a healthy place??? HELP! With or without my husband I know that this is going to hang around unless I learn how to give it to God…EVERYDAY now!
Ms. K.Renea,
I hear your story. I hear your heart. I hear your pain. I am a believer. If there is one thing I know, I know that God is a healer and a deliverer. I know that God loves His children enough to not give them a stone if they are asking for a fish. Ask they LORD for your healing. I am not against medication, but I know that medication is not a substitute healing that God uses. While there are benefits to it, I believe that God can bypass the meds and heal you permanently. I would love to pray for you and with you. Do I have your permission?
I’m here for you sister our testimonies are very similar. Please look me up on FB I teach others about God’s Kingdom and encourage others who have depression Deborah Linder love you sister
Renea,
I don’t know what to say to you other than I would look at you, give you a hug, invite you to church to cry out to GOd with me. It’s just something about seeing other Christian’s love for God and talking to them just encourages me. Life is meant to be enjoyed. I can pray for you. I don’t want you to be miserable. I don’t know just how good life can be other than what I know but there’s joy in HIM. I’m still learning about the Lord but so far what I have learned is that if you hold on… you can make it. Do you have anyone to talk to? I am thinking about seeking a Christian counselor. People keep telling me to read the Word but to be honest I don’t know what to read for that particular situation. I love music so I put some on and start singing. I like to dance so sometimes I go dancing. Get out of the house. I find staying in the house depressing. Be in the house of the Lord as much as possible!
When I was going through a rough patch before I went to almost every church service and event I found out about. When you are isolated you are vulnerable for attacks of the enemy. So to fix that I will find people to connect with.
Anyway, your story touched me and I’m sorry. I’d hug you if I could. Don’t give up. Yes those may just sound like words but keep fighting there’s a reason you’re getting hit hard. You are meant for greatness.
Sincerely,
Clark
I am 42 years old and I was diagnosed bi-polar with severe depression and also had awful panic attacks about 15 years ago. I had taken every medication you can name. I was hospitalized several times for self harm. I’m also a Christian, I love God, but there were times I hated him for allowing me to feel that awful depression that just crippled me. I couldn’t get out of bed or be there for my kids. I went through 12 seccions of electro shock therapy! My psychiatrist told me that she did not know what else to do. She scheduled me for one more session of electroshock therapy and said that by law she couldn’t give me any more. I was so scared because that was my last hope. I friend of mine from California invited me to a 3 day Catholic retreat. I prayed about it and buy a plane ticket and went. I begged God to please help me and believe it or not I heard him tell me I was healed. I immediately felt this weight lifted off me in this inner peace that I can’t explain. When I came back to Texas the first thing I told my husband was that I was never going to have depression or inside he attacks again and of course my husband didn’t really believe me. I never went back to see my psychologist for that last electroshock therapy and got off all my medication. That was about 4 years ago and I still can’t believe it! Please don’t give up… keep praying … get closer to God because he will heal you !
Thank you so much for prayers… I will do better at this I pray… especially believing when asking thank you God bless you!
My dilemma started when I was about 15 , I thought I had committed the unpardonable sin against the Holy Spirit, the devil attacked my thoughts I was questioning the immaculate conception of our Lord, imagining all sorts of evil things.
The only way I could deal with this was to stay away from the Lord, I consumed myself by way of fornication mastubation gambling and all sorts of evil imagination.
I then heard a word that set my mind free 2 Corinthians 10 3-5, the key word was holding those thoughts to the obedience of Christ, I have cast all my burdens upon Jesus, the master of my soul.
I pray daily for the forgiveness of my sins and I strongly believe I am saved.
Thank you for this site, please pray for my wife she needs God’s love as we speak.
God blesses a Holy union marriage.philip you married your wife to love her and respect her so do it with the love of Jesus Christ. Your wife need to feel your sincere love.You pray and ask God to guide you through a loving marriage that will please your holy Father. Recover from self and serve your loving wife.God bless your marriage ?
In the Old Testament, Book of Isaiah–>[Isaiah 41:10*, and 13**],[verse 10* says:]”Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.”[in verse 13**],”For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, FEAR NOT; I WILL HELP THEE.”
In the Epistle of Paul the Apostle to the Philippians–>[Philippians 4:6*, and 7**], [6*]” Be anxious for nothing; but in Every Thing by Prayer and Supplication with Thanksgiving LET YOUR REQUESTS BE MADE KNOWN UNTO GOD.” [7**],”And the PEACE OF GOD, which passeth all understanding, shall GUARD YOUR HEARTS and MINDS–>through–>Christ Jesus.”
The devil is a deceiver, he wants you to feel unworthy. God knew we would come short and so he sent Jesus to save us from our sins. God loves you. He can forgive anything. We have all sinned and come short of the glory of God.
He took on our sins so that we could be forgiven. You can go on knowing you are forgiven and we are
all imperfect beings, Jesus blood can make us whole. Strive to live as the word teaches and Jesus has exemplified. Go and sin no more. God is love.
I’ve been troubled that I’ve committed the unpardonable sin. It all started back when I was 17 when I read a book about hell. I wanted a closer walk with the Lord, so I decided to read it. After I read it, I began having obsessive thoughts that I’d committed this sin and about that book which led to a serious anxiety disorder. Obsessively, I began trying to understand what this sin was, and if I committed it or not. Intrusive thoughts began harassing me tremendously, and I got to the point where I’d hold my head, cry, and withdraw from everyone, everything. I was grieving everyone around me to point where I was avoided, even the church/ministry did too. I felt like nobody understood, because after all, it’s very easy to tell someone to pay it no mind, or it’s the devil, etc. when they’re not the ones being tormented with these thoughts due to OCD. I was so depressed, fearful, and permeated with these horrible thoughts about the Holy Spirit, and one night alone in my room I was watching one of videos of the services at church, and there was a woman who was moved by the Spirit (didn’t realize it, but I thought it was her acting on her own), and I lashed out in frustration of the nonstop intrusive thoughts, because I wanted them to go away, and said “that’s so stupid, and you are too Holy Ghost.”
Ever since that night, I’ve been in fear and uncertain. I would NEVER keep people from or hinder God or His Spirit–especially His power. He was my everything, my best friend, and now I’m so depressed, fearful, and incomplete. I’m 32 now, and I live with this guilt.
A few weeks ago, I had a major depressive episode concerning this which was sparked by someone speaking to me about the context of that book I read when I was 17. I became very anxious and deeply depressed due to the intrusive thoughts about this sin and hell restarting, and I accepted I did it. Then I had an intrusive feeling that struck my heart about desiring to die, etc. Those thoughts/feelings are NOT who I am.
I love the Lord, His word, His Spirit, and I miss Him. I’m so saddened, and I feel hopeless, helpless, empty, and devastated. My moral conscience was always alert and feeling, and since this episode a few weeks ago I feel unfeeling and as if I don’t care. I was once a person ablaze for God and His word, and now this.
Is this a reprobate mind? So confused and scared. Sorry for the book.
If there’s any insight, please help.
Christopher – You are not lost. You have not committed the unpardonable sin. A demon from Hell is harassing you. They will get you to do something and then they will beat you over the head with it. I will pray for you. I break the power of the Devil over you in Jesus Name. Satan, you set Christopher free in Jesus Name. Let go of his mind. He will be set free.
I do not know if you can talk on the phone. I will send you an email tomorrow with my contact information. We love you. I love you. God loves you. You will be set free of this harassing guilt and lying demon in Jesus Name. You will be set free. Rex
Thank you so much for your reply–yes, I can talk on the phone for sure and would like that. Thank you again.
Im Alex Moore and I’m 17 years old I’ve dealt with my share of depressions from time to time
but every since this past February I’ve been holding everything in me I feel as if I did all these horrible crimes and it has gotten to the point where I actually believe I did them. If it’s not one thing it’s another. I believe I have an anxiety disorder followed by OCD. I’ve thought about suicide because it’s like I can’t control my thoughts I don’t have control over my mind and it’s to much for me to handle but I know I can’t kill myself because I don’t wanna go to hell.
I know there is something wrong with me I just don’t know exactly wat it is but I’ve lackin in my spritual life and I don’t know if this is Gods way of trying to put me back on track but I really need somebody help because I don’t wanna continue living in pain
God bless you and ALL here on this feed! I’m not sure how I got this email I’m terrible at checking them but I’m thankful there’s a BEAUTIFUL support system!! I pray you ALL to be ABUNDANTLY blessed in your ministry of caring and helping others, strangers you don’t even know! How Awesome God works!
There is SO much suffering and especially in teens which BREAKS my heart! Too many! We need to help our teens and encourage them and also young adults, there is such a problem and we as Christians need to pray against evil.
I am praying now for Christopher. Christopher, you are carrying far too much burden and God does NOT want that in your life ! Remember Jesus WANTS us to be at peace, to be content and hearts not troubled.
I too have prayer request I thank you for in advance.
I understand depression and anxiety and it will be 10 years since we lost my brother of suicide and I just have to say this, there will be those days but there ARE beautiful days ahead if anyone comptemplating suicide could TRY to hold on one more day EACH day there would never come that day to take their life. My brothers decision has tormented me and my family for ten years and can never get over his awful choice to end his life. Anyone thinking about this must think of the HELL it leaves loved ones it’s devastating but the only way I survive it scripture and Jesus’ Word and peace my brother is with Him.
All of my children suffer some sort of anxiety and I too have for years. I have prayed and especially for my 16 year old son that was bullied in 7th grade for being small and speaking against talk and words that were ungodly and disgusting to him. Big mistake now I feel we took him out of school and home schooled. He has only 1 fiend and they rarely see each other. My son went from happy class clown to a lonely boy with social anxiety. I have prayed and prayed as I too believe it’s a spiritual warfare and now I’ve learned my son is questioning the Truth of the Bible and I was so blessed and content all 3 children were believers now I’m not so content. I’m asking for prayers for “Air”. He is behind in credits to graduate and sleeps half the day and suffers SEVERE migraines and ADD. Sadly I now if the kids and parents that use to be their friends saw this I FEEL they’d be happy! So I’m unsure to write this truth but these kids and parents were AWFUL mean and my son is suffering while they brag and boast how great they are… not fair just not fair. “Air ” is amazing smart and gifted fisherman praise God! my son tells me often “aren’t you glad I have a good heart and not like them” and of course the answer is “Yes!” BUT my heart aches as my child has lost the best years of his life, however he doesn’t care or feel it’s anything to be upset about I worry he will one day. Air has always been Incredibly wise and intuitive beyond his years, I have hope for his future I do, if we can just get through these last years of high school.
Prayers are so appreciated!
God bless you All
Kat
I prayed for you but I also prayed for them also continue to pray n believe your prayer also at the same time thank god as if he has already answered your prayers you will get thru this.Most of all pray for them and ask god to save their souls and to deliver them from the enemy
I cried when I read your response, I know now that I’m not alone. Thank you for praying for me and them. All night I tried to read passages in the bible about not hating people that intentionally try to hurt me. I want to do what Jesus would do, so I’m still praying for God to lift my heart. Even now I can still say I’m thankful for wanting to do the right thing and with Gods help and mercy I believe I will. In The name of Jesus I pray these prayers. Keep praying for me, and I’m thanking God for your uplifting words. It really means a lot to me. Thank you so much my friend in Christ.
Yw you will get thru this n you are definitely in my prayers .You are not alone #trustInGod
I am in a very bad situation at home. My husband does not love me. He tells me this and shows me daily. He has moved his mother and step father in without telling me. His mother has no respect for me and her husband is terminally ill. They only needed me to cook and clean for them. My husdand is hardly home. He travels for work. He is rich and does not believe in God. When I pray, he yells at me to stop. The mother told me to not pray out loud, to keep it to myself. The stepfather was a godly man that read his bible. He died in our home. The same day my husband and his mother told me to get out and I’m not needed any longer. I keep praying and I keep praying….I’m feeling really down and its hard to keep my mind focused on praying. I feel evilness all around me. Can you also pray for me